When we decided to be open about our fertility issues and share our story publicly, we did it for several reasons and we gave it a lot of consideration before pulling the trigger on that first post. I am incredibly glad we did decide to share, for a number of reasons, but mostly because we … Continue reading Next steps
I’ve had a lot of people checking in and asking what’s next in this whole trying to have a baby process. Thank you, by the way, to everyone who’s sent messages, mail, cards, care packages, texts, phone calls — we truly feel so loved and supported. So here’s what’s up. Fertility doctors don’t like to … Continue reading What’s next?
Last week when I said I was in the depths of darkness, I wasn’t being dramatic. I didn’t see a way out of what I was feeling. I wanted to burn my life to the ground and disappear. One of the things that scared me the most over the past several weeks was my mental … Continue reading A week later
Since the beginning of this process, I’ve committed to sharing the ups and downs right here. This is raw, real and may be tough to read. There are two other drafts of blog posts I wish I was sharing with you. One about the day we found out I was pregnant. One of a miscarriage … Continue reading We’ll always love our first baby.
I recently saw a Facebook post that got me all kinds of riled up. It shouldn’t have, because… well, it’s Facebook, but it did and I’m going to blame the meds and my emotionally charged state. The post initially was about someone being annoyed when they see a woman pumping her gas while a man … Continue reading Real men
When I started the medications for the retrieval part of the IVF process my brother joked that I was going to be a bit of an emotional challenge. It’s not an off-the-wall prediction to say that pumping extra hormones into your body might make your brain react in weird ways. I actually braced myself for … Continue reading Hormones, people. Ugh.
I haven’t had much to share in a few weeks because June has been a much-needed and much-appreciated break from all things IVF. IVF is hyper-personalized. For a lot of couples one IVF cycle happens a lot faster than ours has. It is most common to do a fresh transfer. A fresh transfer means embryos … Continue reading July is here
I don’t know what to say about what happened in an Annapolis newsroom yesterday. We don’t know full details about a motive, but reliable sources report he had history with the paper after a story was written about him years ago. We don’t know his exact motive for acting on that anger yesterday — we … Continue reading Annapolis
I just found this in a drawer. I’d forgotten i bought it. Last July we briefly thought I was pregnant, thanks to either a faulty test or a chemical pregnancy. That week I went out and bought this book for our future son or daughter. I still can’t wait to introduce our kids to my … Continue reading I just found this in a drawer
I can’t even tell you how many 400 meter hurdle races I’ve run in my life, but there’s a very distinct pattern to the emotion of my favorite race. Like every track event it starts with the adrenaline at the starting line, a burst of energy or even a chill as you place your feet … Continue reading Results (so far)
This is a look at my meds through phase one of the process. One shot and three pills in the mornings. Two shots and one pill at night. The box full of meds still waiting for after the egg retrieval is daunting, but I’ll face that when it gets here. The morning shot is the … Continue reading details
A few years ago when Russ and I were newly engaged we spent Record Store Day in late April going from store to store in Greenville picking up records. I couldn’t tell you how many we bought that day, but there was a stack of three or four we were given for free. They were … Continue reading Update
I did it. I survived my first night of giving myself shots and I didn’t even panic. I felt fine about it all day and there was a brief moment right before when I had to pause and just say aloud “this seemed less terrifying before I actually had to do it.” Then, dressed … Continue reading I can do this!
Russ and I are both that type of big baby grown-ups who can’t handle needles. Do we have tattoos? No. Is it because we don’t think they’re cool? Nah. It’s because I’m the kind of person who feels queasy at the idea of a needle touching skin and Russ is the kind of person whose … Continue reading Fertility stuff: Update 3
I originally wrote this in 2015, but it’s teacher appreciation week and I thought it was worth another share. Who was your favorite teacher? What would you want to say to her/him? (Sandy – forgive me for using Mrs. Hall repeatedly throughout this post. Old habits die hard.) I met Mrs. Hall nearly 13 years … Continue reading A repost for teacher appreciation